it's been a while since i've written any updates on this blog. the reason is, me n vince had been going through rough patches on our path. just for an update: we're discussing to postpone the wedding to an indefinate date. a couple of my gfs asked me "postponed to WHEN?" question.. however, i'm so sorry .. i really couldnt give everyone this answer yet.

when he mentioned postponing, it seemed like it was the end of the world for me. i coulndt believe how i'm going to go through the same kind of experiences AGAIN! i cant believe how i gave myself chances to get back to that same old shoes AGAIN! that night when i hear this news, all i could do was cry and cry and cry... it is so very painful especially when i thought of "shame on YOU when u fooled me once, and shame on ME when u fool me twice"... in my mind, that "YOU" refers to all men. how could i ever let another man do it to me again? where've all my self-protecting gears go! i was really devastated....