Vince & Lisa - no more

-11/1/2010-

Reality sank in when i cancelled my relationship status in FB. Now, everything is broken off. My Engaged to Vince Ting relationship status was the only thing that tied me to him ... now, everything is clear and cut off, and i'm once again back in the singlehood.

I guess, what didnt kill me last year, would only make me stronger. I'm now a stronger person who knows what i want better.

In my engagement with Vince, i've given out all i need to. and at the end of this relationship, i'm at peace with myself....

Now, it's vince & lisa - no more.. pen-ing off from now until forever....

-13/12/2009-

It's been a while that I've read this blog. As i was reading it, it felt so warm, so real, so sweet and exciting.. but after all the reading, when reality sinks back in, i know i need to face this harsh reality again. It hadnt been a dream before... it was really true.

Today is 13th december. I was supposed to be doing my final checklist in preparation for my wedding.. instead, i'm here crying and trying to live one day at a time getting through this pain..

I promised to love this man the way God wants me to love him. If letting him go is the best option, i would do it with minimized pain for the both of us.

-cooling off-

-24/10/2009-

2 weeks since the cool-off period started. This already had been pushing me away too much... 10 more weeks to go? 2 months ago, we bought the rings together. trying out almost all couple-rings we can find......... we came to a ring, which i think is my perfect wedding band. it was custom made for us from Italy, mine is size 7, his is 19. It was simple, with simple design, no diamond on me, and they were EXACTLY the same!! EXACTLY the same! engraved with "LISA" on the man's band; and "VINCE TING" on the woman's ring. I remembered each and every word we said then... i suggested that we engrave our wedding date "9/1/2009" on the ring; he asked "do u know when's the date?" ... then he said "better not, engraved already then cnanot change". then he wrote the "TING" behind the Vince, telling me that there're many vince out there. he wants to be sure that it's vince ting that i'm marrying...

woshhhh... 2 months later, the rings are here a couple of weeks ago. but here i am.. mending my broken heart.. trying to get over this shattered dreams of having my own wedding on 1/9/2009. friends flocked in to comfort and protect me.

... to be continue...

The uncomfortable distance.....

-24/09/2009-

The uncomfortable distance, and the uncomfortable silence. i am determined to persevere in this uncomfortable distance. i feel scared and terrified and i feel like freeing myself from this. and i'm terrified... very terrified...

it's been a while since i've written any updates on this blog. the reason is, me n vince had been going through rough patches on our path. just for an update: we're discussing to postpone the wedding to an indefinate date. a couple of my gfs asked me "postponed to WHEN?" question.. however, i'm so sorry .. i really couldnt give everyone this answer yet.

when he mentioned postponing, it seemed like it was the end of the world for me. i coulndt believe how i'm going to go through the same kind of experiences AGAIN! i cant believe how i gave myself chances to get back to that same old shoes AGAIN! that night when i hear this news, all i could do was cry and cry and cry... it is so very painful especially when i thought of "shame on YOU when u fooled me once, and shame on ME when u fool me twice"... in my mind, that "YOU" refers to all men. how could i ever let another man do it to me again? where've all my self-protecting gears go! i was really devastated....

Working on the differences...

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Wedding DAY is just merely a celebrated starting point of a relationship. Much effort and money and time are put into "organising" this event. Who started the "idea" of celebrating a marriage?

Item: Bridal Gown & Accessories

1. Bridal Gown
   Since me and Vince are not going to take studio bridal pictures, I would need to hunt down for a gown on my own. My idea of the gown would be: mandrin collar; sleeved; A-line; floor length gown, plus a short veil. The gown should be as SIMPLE as possible. No beads; no lace; no dangling ribbons


2. Evening Gown
   I'll be shopping for the evening gown in KL during our trip in August. Will stop by Beatrice Looi's boutique, a local designer. http://www.beatricelooi.com/. Am hoping that i would be able to find one very pretty gown in there. Found out that the boutique is in Lot10. which is about 10 minutes walk from the place where we're staying.


3. Accessories - Necklace; Earrings - Havent decided yet. Waiting for the gowns.


4. Gloves - NONE! - PLEASE..... can i not wear gloves?! :>


5. Make up & Hairdo - Thanks to Jasmine for introducing Audrey to me. I will make an appointment to see her after my trip. and after i've decided what gowns to wear.


6. Manicure & Pedicure - Though i'm a craze in weird and extravagent nail arts... i've decided to do crystal french manicure for my wedding.. reasons: i dont want to puke looking at my nails on my pictures 10 years from now! haha.

These are some of the designs that I've found online.





Shoes
Would love to look for a shorter heel for the shoes. Found one in Charles & Keith couple of weeks ago. Will try finding other options in KL.